Mood: frustrated
Song stuck in head today: Ain't No Sunshine (I would've liked the HANSON version to be stuck in my head but unfortunately it's some other person whose version I heard at the MPH cafe thingy-place)
Ok so now I see the immense work and difficulty it takes to create a blog/webpage layout. Honestly, I don't see how some people *coughjwcough* can create and change the templates as often as they take showers. I was just reading this tutorial on how to create iframes and stuff and to tell you the truth, IT BOGGLES MY MIND. How do people come up with this stuff??!! Well anyway I decided that I just have to get Paint Shop Pro or Photoshop so I can make my own graphics that I can be proud of. I'm so tired of looking for great icons/avvies/siggies etc. from talented people. Even though they say it's ok and that I give credit, I still feel a little bit guilty for using their work. *sigh* Anyway found this in the book I borrowed from the library.
Mirror
I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful-
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.
Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me and old
woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.
Sylvia Plath
*scribbled 11:25 pm(:
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Mood: sad...
Song stuck in head today: What If I'm Right by Ingram HillIt's inevitable, I can feel it. Right in my bones, right under my skin. It sends chills down my spine yet it's a comforting feeling. Not so in the sense that it puts me at ease but that it feels right at home where it is. Makes sense? No? Well nothing in this world does. If you believe so it's time for a wake up call, a jolt into reality. *sigh* It's the distance. It's growing - at such an alarming rate. Wider and wider like the space between two mountain canyons. Like the wide oceans of the Pacific. Not even globalisation can help this one.
JW: Yeah ditto.. we used to be close last year. I don't know what happened this year. Could it be our sitting arrangement? Or the fact that I don't come to school early anymore and that I miss out on the oppurtunity to chat with you every morning before assembly? We don't even talk online anymore and when we do talk, it's always awkward silences. Yes I can feel it.. You're still my friend babes.. Hope this gap won't worsen after TKGS. Love ya!
Chrystal: I miss sitting in front of you so so much!! You're such a blast to talk to and our english group projects were the best! Miss ya like you won't believe. That time we went to Swensen's I had a really great time. Yes I miss hanging out with you.
Heidi: We haven't talked in ages! We always miss each other online. It sucks! But we're not getting bored of you ok? Especially not me. Miss you loads lovey!!
Gabz: I need to talk to you!!!! I miss you so much and can't wait to see you in December. I wish we can go back to old times when we would send each other "Please call me"s and talk on the phone without worrying how much it would cost. The movies and sleepovers and just hanging out at the mall. Man... *starting to tear up*
I would do whatever it takes not to let these gaps grow any wider than they already are. I love you guys!! <333
*scribbled 5:31 pm(:
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Mood: irritated by my stupid cold
Song stuck in head today: NoneUpdate! 9.25 pm
Ok this totally bullshit post found on the VH1 forums totally pissed me off. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL??!! "Someone" sure have loads of time on their hands to do something moronic like this. Dude, you on drugs or something? Because you sound pretty delusional.
GET A LIFE.Hanson's Propaganda Machine
Quite positively the most propaganda laden media machine in motion these days is the one rumbling behind the scenes of Hanson. What began as 'rumor control' in the early 00's turned into a full out flying facade which has nearly crashed and burned at least three times since. Anyone who's anyone in the Hanson fan circles is aware even now that their managements attempts at building a new image for the three guys failed miserably.
With an 'All Access' VH1 special airing in the winter of 2003/04 and an MTV Cribs episode airing months later, Hanson fans found them selves doing double takes. According to 'the guys' on VH1 all three Hansons (including Taylor and his 'wife' and son) lived together in a rented loft in New York City. However months later MTV Cribs released an episode featuring the Hansons again. Only this time, only eldest brother Isaac and youngest brother Zac lived in the same loft seen on VH1, only Taylor and his wife were said to live elsewhere in New York.
Okay so you're thinking, "Well so (middle brother) Taylor and his wife and son moved out," wrong. Not only were Isaacs and Zac's hair cuts identical to months previous (and not matching their hair at live appearances), but they even spoke about their recently wrapped music video "Penny & Me" which had originally wrapped back months ago when VH1 claimed they all lived together. Not only that but Isacc's room came complete with a baby bed and all of Taylor's wardrobe.
What was to follow was the revelation that the Hanson brothers in fact only rented the loft for a matter of months from an artist who was out of the country at the time. Fans across the nation found themselves in a bit of shock when they realized that none of the furnishings were produced or placed by any of the Hansons themselves. The entire show on VH1's "All Access" had been nothing more than propaganda designed to make Hanson look more mature and grown up.
Previously the middle brother Taylor found himself up against various rumors about his rampant open minded sexual preferences. Rumors linking him to Alex Greenwald of Phantom Planet as well as countless unknown males sent the Hanson parents and managers into a frenzy. Suddenly Taylor was engaged to his 'long time sweetheart' Natalie Bryant. What the public wasn't aware of was Miss Bryant and Taylor had broken up months before just after MTV's 20th Anniversary Bash and had not seen each other since. Suddenly eight months later Taylor marries Natalie in a shot-gun wedding (which VH1 was allowed footage from the Hansons videographer Ashley Greyson) in South Georgia. What the Hansons hoped would not become obvious soon did.
According to the releases and notices Taylor and Natalie had been sweethearts for years. However as many already knew the two had a rocky relationship almost from the start. When the Hanson management filmed the wedding ceremony they never expected the public to catch on that the wedding was shot on film 'night for day' and filled with some of Central Castings best extras. Their management also had to deal with the fact that Natalie was already five months pregnant, a fact that was heavily denied by Hanson as well as their management up until it was impossible to deny.
Even the birth of Taylor's second 'child' daughter Penelope was a subject Taylor refused to confirm. When being asked to confirm he only replied "I don't think it's my place to announce to the world," which only makes even more people wonder how much more of a farce will their image become before it all falls apart.
It really is no surprise that in the entertainment industry management will work to produce a specific image for their clients. However it seems the Hansons management has failed at doing so, and failed miserably. Lucky for them the only people who believe what management has created are those who have not paid attention for the past six years.
Currently they are trying to portray an indie image. Where music is all that matters and all that ever will matter. What Hanson and their management probably hope never gets out in the USA is that they're currently in talks (to sell out) with a company in Japan as well as the United Kingdom. Apparently their funds are running dry and selling rights to their music for bubble gum and car commercials is alright, at least if no one notices. Right guys?
started as a stunt to keep Taylor Hansons image 'straight' his brothers 'more mature' and their lifestyles more 'fashionable' only turned out to make them a laughing stock to everyone who knows them. Sadly VH1 only proved they are pandering to the fictional life the Hansons wish everyone to believe as fact. This became obvious during VH1's 100 Greatest Child Stars special with Hanson at 98.
Remember, everything is not always what it seems.
Someone, who knows.
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I woke up this morning to find that I could not feel my nose. Why? Because I fell sick. Lol in answer to what Erwin asked (he asked how come I was falling sick): I contracted the flu virus and it is now invading my body cells in order to make new copies of itself and thus invade more unsuspecting body cells.
Gosh. See what studying Biology for a whole week can do to you. So I basically stayed at home doing nothing.
NOTHING. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. Nada. Zilch. You get the picture. Well, I watched
The Apprentice on Star World. The Pepsi episode. It's kinda interesting. Seeing that I NEVER watch The Apprentice. It's interesting really to see how people can turn into the worst kind of characters when they lose. Yup, losing sucks but I never realised they bring out the absolute worst in people. Maybe I should lose often. That way I can actually debate well. I feel for Donald Trump for seeing that kind of fights on the show. If it was me, I'd run out of the room screaming. Guess I'm not really cut out for the corporate world.
Anyway, I hate having the freaking flu!!! It does irritating shit to your nose. I must have gone through an entire box of tissues by now. And my eyes are tearing up too! ARGH!!! Feel sympathetic for me. NOW.
*scribbled 8:34 pm(:
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Mood: OK I guess
Song stuck in head today: Find Your Way Back by Michelle BranchI'm sorry
For what I've done
Or for what I've not done
I'm afraid
Of what I'm unsure of
Of what I don't know
I'm helpless
For the things I cannot do
For the things I fail to say
The tears in your voice say it all
And you crawl
Painfully to that open door that's slowly closing in on you
It's creaking shut
The light is dimming
You scream out
But
There is no one who hears you.
Or is there?
I could be on the other side
To help you
Hold you tight.
I'm trying
Trust me.
*scribbled 10:25 pm(:
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Mood: contented
Song stuck in head today: that new song by Marion RavenAaaahhhhhh.... It's good to be home. Finally. All together... Here's to more late nights, wacky jokes, hug-tackles, Hannah's dances, and loves-up-on-my-fave-people! And most importantly, to more wonderful memories.
Lost without each other - where you want to be. I love my HLers!
*scribbled 11:15 pm(:
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Mood: ...
Song stuck in head today: Dandelion by AudioslaveUpdate! 9.30pm
New board is up! Thanks loads Lisa. Loving the new boards! *hugs*
The last couple of days, I was so sad and confused.
Lost without each other was gone. No one was around on HF.Net. Where was everyone?? I felt so cut off, so out of the loop. Then I left a message on Hannah's LJ telling her I missed talking to her and that the whole situation was confusing. And she said that
Ste shut the new board down. Man... That's it. I think I'm not going to be posting on HF anymore. Everything's just so different. It's not a place I want to go to anymore. That place was great when I joined it but those people who made it wonderful there aren't around anymore. They've been banned, deleted.. gone.. I'll miss the times in HL where I stay up late.. talking about really random lame stuff... the hug-tackles.. Hannah's silly dances.. Yeah... the whole thing really sucks. But the good thing is Lisa will be getting us a new board. Can't wait for it. Yeah I guess this is kinda like a new beginning....
*scribbled 2:40 pm(:
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Mood: sad and disappointed
Song stuck in head today: A Decade Under The Influence by Taking Back SundayI swear everything's so different now. It's confusing me. One minute we're all one big happy bunch and the next things explode. It's hard to write this without hurting anybody, but I wish it would go away. It should never have been like this. Well, it's just not the same anymore. There's no such thing as being able to say what exactly you're thinking. Your
opinion just goes by unnoticed. Or worse, intentionally ignored. It sucks. What happened? I don't know but I should have seen the signs. I guess it's kind of stupid of me to not see them before. I want things to go back to how they used to be but it just
can't. It's not possible. Things have gone across the line. I guess I have to be strong enough to walk away...
How many times do I have to tell you?
How many times do I have to say it?
You just won't believe me, will you?
You just won't hear the truth.
Are you even listening to yourself?
Or are you turning a deaf ear
Closing one eye
To everything that's happening around you?
Don't be naive, my dear.
Things are not all they seem.
You reach for something you don't have
Never had
Will never have.
Pathetic
Why do you keep doing the things you do?
How many times must you repeat the same mistakes?
You just don't see it, do you?
You wait until it's too late
Until we start writing our wrongs on blank pieces of paper
Fill them up with useless rants about how
You should have never done what you did
You should have listened to your intuition
You should have just seen the signs.
But you didn't.
*scribbled 8:28 pm(:
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Mood: happy
Song stuck in head today: Jerk It Out by CaesarsYay! Update time! Bet you missed me right? LMAOToday was a relatively thrilling Saturday. I woke up with no agenda, no to-do list and I ended up doing so much. I wanted to get a haircut at first but then decided against it because I spent like an hour in the shower conditioning and applying hairmask to my hair. So we decided to go out shopping and watch
'Madagascar'. That makes it the second time I've watched it and the third movie I've watched this past week. Past movies include
'Saw' and
'Cursed'(by the way, don't watch this movie. It seriously SUCKS ASS). Anyway, went to
HMV today because I decided I needed more music which is actually worth listening to. And guess what I saw under the 'T' section?
Taking Back Sunday!!!! Yes, Where You Want To Be was like right under my nose and I didn't notice it. But it cost like freaking $43!!! Ah... what the heck? It's worth it because TBS absolutely ROCKS!!! Then went to Takashimaya and bought a pair of jeans from Zara and a pair of cargo pants from Fox. Man there were sooooo many people. Didn't realise there could actually be an overcrowding of the human species. We really DO need more space.
Anyway, quite a lot has happened this past week. Just didn't have the time to blog it all. And when I did have the time ie. yesterday, something happened to Blogger so I couldn't blog. Dang it. Lol. Anyway, so happy for Ella. Yup, she finally won her case against that Marly something-or-other. Plagiarism is seriously NOT COOL. You people out there who write stories and such and make them available on the web, be careful this doesn't happen to you. Some people will do ANYTHING to satisfy their thirst for fame and recognition in all the wrong ways. But that was kind of stupid. I mean come on... 'Catapult' is like such a well-known fiction in the HANSON fans community. And this Marly chick copied everything, just changing the names to turn it into a McFly fic. MCFLY???!!!! Ewwwwwww.... Taylor and Alley suddenly became Danny and Alley. That's just twisted. Glad that Ella won in the end and that all of Marly's 'fiction' sites got closed down by Freewebs and her fiction thread in the McFly boards got taken down by the Mods. Go Ella!! Can't wait for the ending of Catapult.
Yesterday, I went to TJC with Ying Lin to hand in our DSA forms. Firstly, we started off late because Ying Lin still hadn't gotten her nomination from Mrs Kong. We were supposed to go on Thursday but the nomination wasn't ready. So we reached TJC around 3.55pm. And guess what? My form got rejected. Why? Because my documents were photocopied so the school stamp wasn't the one in blue. Well how was I supposed to know? I have to hand in another set to VJC. And my ISCT documents needed stamps too. So I had to practically rush back to TKGS to get the documents stamped again. Thank you so much to Miss Elaine who had to sign my neverending sheets of documents. Her hand must be so tired after that. Thanks so much. Miss Elaine rocks!! Anyway rushed back to TJ with Clara(she had the same problem). Made it in time. 5 mins before the deadline. Handed in the form and that's it. I'm sooooo getting Dad to come with me when I go hand in the form to VJC. And I am NOT waiting til 3 July to hand in. I'm going to go when Dad comes home. That would be on 8 June. wouldn't want the same thing to happen again....
*scribbled 11:01 pm(:
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