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Monday, September 20, 2004____*

i noe i hvnt been blogging in abt a wk. been realy bz wif the comin exams and stuff and sumtimes jz too lazy to use the internet n blog.. been in a kind of depression mood lately. cry alot. jz the simplest and smallest things make me cry. i have no idea wats wrong. i gues my whole life jz sucks. had a looooong talk wif my dad last nite.. and i cried alot too.. sigh.. and he tried to keep "guessin" wats wrong, and everything he guessed was ryt.. like: "is there sumthin wrong in skool? ya i failed my last 3 a.math tests.. cnt concntr8 wen i study.."
"u miss everyone isit? ya i miss cape town sooooooo much.. and i realy wana go back"
"isit also abt me workin in jkrta? ya def!!"
i guess my mind is sooo muddled and jumbled up i cnt think straight.. but i think dat chat helped in sum way... kpt msgin gabz to kinda lyk talk coz she's my best fren and all even tho she's lyk a million miles away, but she nvr replies (i din noe till today there was sumthin wrong wif her fone) neway, she sent a realy realy nice email and it cheered me up:

Heya girl
sorry me not smsing u its not that ive been busy n even if i was a lil sms wouldnt hurt after all u still are n will always be my best friend but my phone dsnt wanna send sms u to i really dunno why da strange thing is i can sms any1 i want in da world but not u not cool im gonna call vodacom sometime just neva get round to it im really sry. n its sooo annoying i try to sms u all da time n always get a delivary report. anyways cnt say much gotta go do hmwk just needed to communicate with u b4 u thought i was dead or something lol.oh i didnt tell u i think im going out with this guy named warren when u come if u still are hopefully u will come u can finaly meet him n he must meet u ive told him soooooooo much about u his gotta meet u sometime hey.anyways promise will write later i really must go n got phillippas matric dance on saturday il take pictures n send u some k ooooooooooooo SEXY im showing ALOT of clevidge.
Gabz
PS tell tazzie boi i say hi n dnt 4get dat name use it on him k
PSSSSS MIZZZZZZZZZ U TONNNNNNNNNSSSSSSSSSSSSS
*MHUAZ* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god... i miss her sooo bad.. coz i can always call her up and tell her ANYTHING back in cape town.. now it's all so messed up. my life is messed up. and everyone's bz wif exams and stuff so i dnt fink i wana bother anyone.. k i gtg study social studies now... fun fun fun... haha..

*scribbled 4:35 pm(:

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